So I've finally done it. Being 26 is scary, this year has been rough. Having spent years attempting to make the perfect life and failing I finally dealt with some of the roughest things in my life. In early March, we had bad storms, and rough weather I had decided to get into music, and follow my passion. I needed my break. I got a partner, one of which I had known for many years. Me and Ryan began Underground Nation. We had Underground Interviews going as well as Underground Girls, I had personally reached almost 500,000 views on my own social media pages. With a passion to do something we had set out on a mission. In February I spent a day chilling with Wakka Flakka a rapper I grew up listening to at this point spent a day standing next to me. It didn't phase me, I was working side by side with my musical heros all year long. Psyde FX of Psycho Drama spent a night coming to Joliet to support a local artist I was managing, It was amazing, I would wake up and see such amazing things. Monday we would do A show in Joliet, and by Friday we were playing volleyball with Jelly Roll in Lynchfield. As all of this was going, there was trouble brewing at home.
My love life, my relationship had been failing for years. The life I wanted was falling apart before my eyes. I was 25 with nothing. Sure I had a name, locally I was building something huge, but inside I was weak, and small. I would go home at night, pick up my little girl and cry. Honestly I would. Her mother, whom I had thought for years to be the love of my life and I had drifted. Our love we once had, diminished, now we hung on merely for our daughter. Our fun playful smiles, and family dinners turned to anger and frustration. I began to drink and try to drown out the ever deep feeling of hurt and hate.
I would go to a show and be a star. Then by day I would be at home, designing, promoting, and hurting. As spring moved forward her grandfather became deathly Ill. I was unsure how to handle her and my daughter leaving again. Going to Minnesota for weeks on end. Me and my little girl had never been apart for more than a day. As she left we were planing a show for a local record company I was managing, Smokem Records. I had been managing about 45 artist at this point. Me and my partner had as always gotten the fancy care cleaned and our equipment ready to roll. I still remember heading out that night, Ready to make our clients nights with great video and coverage. Our Blog www.undergroundinterviews.org was hitting thousands a day almost 100,000 people a month. For us this was huge. We were on the verge of 1.2 Million hits a year, this show another on my belt. I had waited for weeks for this show, with tones of new talent from Chicago. I had called my little ones mom to say good night, They were still in Minnesota. As that night went on to the end it began my journey into what I know see as a spiral of confusion....
