Lifes decissions

         I hate to ask but what the hell is life about? Im so confused at points. I play the tough guy with thick skin well, but recently I have fallen apart. I feel as though sometimes i am not anything more than a speck on a giant ball. Who am I supposed to be? What am  I supposed to be? Will I continue to be lost for the rest of my life? I have found happiness finally..... I am open and finally feel  I am happy, I have landed the job of my dreams but Im scared at the same time. I feel as though everything happens for a reason. Im just not sure if the reason out weighs the means of life, but I do know Im tired of living in fear and worrying if Im making the right or wrong decissions. I feel I am finally making the right ones!